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First of all, I'd like to say that if you don't have an eating disorder but wish you did and are here to find out how to develop one, please go back the way you came. Wannarexics are not welcome here. Eating disorders are not diets, they are not fads and they are not "cool". If you do have an eating disorder and find anything in this journal helpful, you're welcome to it and I wish you the best. I am here to support others with their disorders and to be supported myself, it's our bodies and we make our own choices. Always remember, you are BEAUTIFUL and you are LOVED! <3 "What I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that though I do not know you and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you." -Valerie, V for Vendetta

Friday, January 22, 2010

Fasting Obsession

Is it arrogant of me to think of myself as a bear right now? I find it funny; I decided to binge today, willingly. Weird right? But wait, there's more.. you see, I figured I should get all my cravings out now, before I fast, that way, I wont have all those cravings while I'm trying to resist food, plus the new ones that form during the fast. So, like a bear, I prepare myself for my hibernation in winter by binging. Now, again, like a bear, I'm nice and fat for hibernation and I just stop eating for the winter and relax. Of course, my "winter" is only going to be 40 days instead of 4 months, but the concept is the same.
So, doesn't it make you wonder if perhaps humans were meant to "hibernate" as well, in their own way? Maybe not in winter, since your body can't warm itself as well without food, but maybe in late spring, just before summer? Or maybe even in the beginning of summer. It would make perfect sense to me. Why not? Mammals hibernate, humans are mammals; and we can clearly survive without food, that's why we get fat! I might be weird but it just seems natural to me, humans weren't always sedentary and gluttonous.
Anyways, getting off my little whimsical musings here, I'm excited to fast! I'm hoping to be 130, at least, by the end of it, no, not hoping, I WILL be 130 by the end of it. 120 would be better, but 130 is great.
Closing on a high note, I'm back with my boyfriend, again. He seems really happy we're back together, even though he's the one who broke it off.. Men.. Oh well, he's lucky I love him.

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