Fasting Blues..

God I feel like utter shit right now. I know this fast is flushing the toxins out of my body and that's why I feel so nauseous, but it sucks so hard, I've almost thrown up like 4 times this morning. I wish I could just throw up and get it over with, I'd probably feel better afterwards anyway.
I've been fasting for about a week-ish now on and off, I started on Monday the 11th or so, originally with juice fasting, but my family made meatloaf on Thursday and I freaking LOVE meatloaf, so I had that and it just totally made me binge that day. So I started over on Friday then on Saturday I had a panic attack from my wonderful ex (aren't men great?) so I forced down some oatmeal, I couldn't eat all of it and it did jack shit to settle my stomach and it's been upset since that day.
I'm breaking my fast today though, I've lost nearly 10 pounds from it so I'm pretty pleased and even more pleased to break the damn fast. I'll try again later, after ABC, but I just feel so sick right now I'll be glad to have food in my system, even if I end up throwing it up.
I'm starting ABC today, finally, after fasting sticking to those calories should be no problem at all. For the first few days of ABC, my calories are all gonna be from juice, since I still need to break my fast and going straight from no food to solid food will make me even more sick than I already feel.
I got the non-diet V8 splash yesterday, since there's no way I can get to 500 calories in a day with juice that's 10 calories per serving, this one is 80 calories so that's only about 6 glasses the first two days to hit 480 calories.

Omg I have been CRAVING pizza like freaking crazy for the past two days (maybe because someone made pizza the other day and I resisted even having one bite? :D ) But like, all day there's been a thought in the back of my mind, behind all the thoughts about calories and fasting and men, that keeps saying, "mmmmm piiiiizzzaaaaa" So.. I got some weight-watcher's pizza, it's only like 360 calories for the whole thing I think, so that'll be fine for like a 400 calorie ABC day. I feel it's better to satisfy cravings than to ignore them and cause a binge. Anyways, it's weight watchers so it's gotta be at least a little bit healthy, right? Or maybe less unhealthy than normal pizza? Another pizza I looked at was like 600 calories per serving! So it's a pretty big difference between the two and right now, pizza is pizza!