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First of all, I'd like to say that if you don't have an eating disorder but wish you did and are here to find out how to develop one, please go back the way you came. Wannarexics are not welcome here. Eating disorders are not diets, they are not fads and they are not "cool". If you do have an eating disorder and find anything in this journal helpful, you're welcome to it and I wish you the best. I am here to support others with their disorders and to be supported myself, it's our bodies and we make our own choices. Always remember, you are BEAUTIFUL and you are LOVED! <3 "What I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that though I do not know you and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you." -Valerie, V for Vendetta

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

ABC Again

So, after getting about 5 hours sleep, I actually do feel loads better, thankfully. Seems I'm not getting sick after all.
Being only 2 pounds down, I've decided that perhaps it's time I went through an ABC regime. With that in mind, I need a well structured plan; ABC is always hard for me, even more so now I'm sure, with people watching what I eat. Part of me is telling me to stop now, before I get caught and forced into recovery again. At least if that happens, they have no reason to force food on me, I don't need to gain a pound. However, most of me has opted to continue, my experience in recovery has only made me that more cunning and that more careful. Google chrome is your friend, the "incognito" feature is quite possibly the best feature I have ever seen. It doesn't track any of your browsing history, it doesn't keep you logged in anywhere and it doesn't save any of your form data. The perfect secret-browsing tool.
I wish I could just rip off all this fat, humans should be able to control their bodies, like women turning their periods off or growing your hair longer instantaneously and things like that.
Anyways, today I'm liquid fasting, going to the store in a while, so I'll probably get some low-cal juices or something, Thursday and Friday I'll keep below 400 calories and over the weekend I'll have a water-only fast and begin ABC fresh and empty on Monday.

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