Breaking the Fast

Soo I ended up breaking my fast today, a friend of mine actually bought me a strawberry ice cream cone with real strawberries in it.. and well.. I couldn't resist. At least the real strawberries made it a little healthy right? I don't even wanna know how many calories I had today and I'm not even going to be in the same room with my scale. Until at least Monday after my fast.. Who am I kidding, I'll probably hop on the scale tomorrow night, Saturday morning at the latest.
I did see a pretty interesting video posted in another community today though, here's the link if anyone is interested!

YouTube - DO you want to stay FAT? then STOP MESSING UP!

Kind of inspiring and I can relate to it now more than ever, it makes perfect sense, unhealthy foods are exactly like drugs. I am definitely addicted to food and I need to break myself of it! I'm torn between being addicted to my stomach growling and being addicted to the taste of unhealthy foods. Like she said, I need to remind myself, eating that food is NOT an option for me!
I also heard today that a lot of people are fasting to show their respect to the people who died in Haiti from 6pm on Friday to 6pm on Saturday. Gives me extra motivation to succeed in the fast I'd already planned and a bigger reason to do it than just for me. Fasting always gives me much more clarity in my rites and rituals and makes me feel closer to the Goddess and God (I'm Wiccan if you didn't know :P). An empty stomach gives me a clear mind and deeper feeling for what I'm doing, so, tomorrow night, I think I'll perform a rite for the people of Haiti during my fast, maybe focus on that rather than eating anything, since I start to get my cravings in the evening.

On a lower note, I don't know how well I'm coping in this breakup, I feel like I don't care but I think it's more of a numbness than anything else. I don't want to feel the pain so I just don't. I still find myself checking up on him every now and then though, peeking at his myspace and what not. I've been steering clear of watching movies that are all about love or the heroes in it do what they do for love or love this or love that, why do so many movies have to be about love? It's so annoying. I was watching Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End earlier and the history between Davy Jones and Calypso didn't bother me as much as I thought it would.. the story between them has always touched me, I always feel for Davy Jones but today I was just kinda numb to it. I don't know if I like feeling this way, but it sure beats being in misery all the time.