Stressed

I feel so stressed today, my boyfriend and I have been having issues all day, he's being so cold to me today, I dunno what the hell it is but it's driving me crazy today. I'm alone right now so I can actually post in my blog during the day instead of after midnight when everyone is asleep. I have the worst headache in the world right now. I kinda wanna go take a nap. My stomach is growling right now and even that isn't making me feel better, I'm empty as can be and my boyfriend is bringing me down.
I guess on the good side it's making me want to eat even less. It's probably silly but I feel like he wants to fight so we'll break up and he can get away from little miss fatty me. He's so handsome and fit and thin and he could definitely do better than me. I practically worship him, he's so perfect I'm amazed that he's even with me in the first place.
Anyways, all I had to day was a piece of plain white toast, the fattiest kind of course but we've got just about nothing in the house so I don't have much choice, it's only 80 calories so I guess it's not so bad.
My head is just pounding so I think I might actually go take a nap. Maybe my boyfriend will be in a better mood when I see him later.

Bleh, goal time!

It's been a while since I've written anything. I just feel so bored with life right now. Haven't been on the computer much lately and.. *sigh* I've gained weight. I feel so down right now. I guess on the good side some of my friends have noticed my weight loss and commented on how thin my face looks. That made me happy, I still feel fat but hearing things like that is so nice, my boyfriend commented on how thin my thighs have gotten too, that made me really happy. But I weighed myself today and I've gained 5 pounds. I feel so horrible after seeing that, all my fasting and starving and I gained weight?! Uhg, damn my slow metabolism. I feel so depressed.
Ok thats it, I'm making a goal. I am going to lose 10 pounds by Easter, that might be kinda ridiculous, I dunno, we'll see how it goes. I've got a little over 2 weeks to lose 10 pounds, I think I can do it, I mean I can lose at least 7 pounds easily with a little will power, so lets see if I can get serious and go for 10.