Uhg, I ate a lot today again and I was doing so good too! Then my roommate had to get some taco bell! It was sitting in front of me for like an hour before I finally decided to eat it. I hate myself now. I'd lost like 4 pounds in the days I'd been fasting then I practically get fat shoved down my throat and probably gained it all back with one greasy meaty taco. I feel really full right now, I almost feel like purging to get rid of it all. I'm not one to purge, I just can't stand it, I'd rather starve than purge, but right now I'm quite tempted to go vomit this taco into the toilet. I just can't bring myself to do it though, guess I'll just fast for a few more days and skip going to the store for low-cal food. Out of sight out of mind right? I'll just go out or sleep or hide in my room or something I dunno.
Feel so freaking fat today!
About Me
- Prismia
- First of all, I'd like to say that if you don't have an eating disorder but wish you did and are here to find out how to develop one, please go back the way you came. Wannarexics are not welcome here. Eating disorders are not diets, they are not fads and they are not "cool". If you do have an eating disorder and find anything in this journal helpful, you're welcome to it and I wish you the best. I am here to support others with their disorders and to be supported myself, it's our bodies and we make our own choices. Always remember, you are BEAUTIFUL and you are LOVED! <3 "What I hope most of all is that you understand what I mean when I tell you that though I do not know you and even though I may never meet you, laugh with you, cry with you, or kiss you, I love you. With all my heart, I love you." -Valerie, V for Vendetta
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