Crime and punishment

I ate so much today.. so many calories, I'm so fat.. I was doing so good when I fasted last time, lost 15 pounds. God I felt so good after that. But I've gained 3 pounds back since then, I guess that's not too bad, but I don't want to gain any back, I want to get rid of it all, I have to get rid of it all. I wish someone could squeeze me like a tube of toothpaste and just push all the fat out! I actually ate pizza today, it smelled sooo good.. I couldn't resist. I feel like a giant tub of lard afterwards though. *sigh* I'm using perfume as an appetite suppressor now, the smell gives me a headache and makes me feel nauseous so food is yucky. I don't wanna eat another bite all day after eating nasty greasy pizza. Damn roommates.
I'm drinking lovely, awesome, no calorie herbal tea and I plan to get some more soon since I'm not fond of this kind, it's black cherry berry, ew. That seems more like a kind of juice than tea.
Well, not going shopping till monday or tuesday so all thats in the house right now is super high calorie crap, might as well fast till then.
Been thinking of some kind of punishment for eating things like today, like having to clean or something if I eat when I'm not supposed to, cause I'm into things like that. :P Oh well, tired now, I'll think more on that later.